Sometimes, I really don’t feel like thinking about the future. I just want to live in the moment, enjoy the present, and not have to plan for tomorrow. And I think that in many ways, this attitude has been working fine for me. When I left the States to move back to France, my only short term goal was to finish my college degree, and I did not even truly have a career or professional path in mind. I did not have any long-term goals, and things still ended up unfolding quite nicely.
For the past month or so, I have been telling myself that I really needed to figure out what I wanted to do with my life; that I needed to know what I wanted to do and be and have in 5, 10, or maybe even 20 years from now, and start working on putting the pieces together so that I can truly end up there, wherever there might be… But my mind just keeps on wandering and I am enjoying too much what is happening in the present to be able to come up with concrete plans or even dreams for the future… It is like I have spend so much time training my brain to accept what is, expect less, live simply, and go with the flow, that thinking about more is simply too much.
But I have always been a strong believer in dreams… Having dreams is what makes me feel alive and what helps me be positive and optimistic. Dreams are your soul, your truth, your self… Without dreams, wouldn’t you be just another being living on autopilot, wandering around your day and your daily routine without asking yourself how you are?
So what should it be? Live in the moment or work to make your dreams come true?
I guess I can live walking this line: live in and enjoy the moment as much as possible and yet still expand my life and my experiences of it by dreaming and taking steps in making those dreams come true, little by little…
So tonight, I will write down those dreams and think about the steps I could take so they may someday come true.
“Dreams are the touchstones of our character.”
Henri David Thoreau